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♥ 9:49 PM

Why do things have to be so complicated! Argh,
its hair wrenching i swear!
Gosh!
Help me think of a nickname for barbara! ^^

Labels: and if you ask me if i love him, i'd lie

♥ 1:23 AM

"The sharp, ragged edges of the hole in my chest were already throbbing, so I decided to cheat.
I rarely ever thought of him. I tried not to. Any memories I had of him ripped open my chest, and left me gasping for air. It was a crippling thing, this sensation that a huge hole had been punched through my chest, excising my most vital organs and leaving ragged, unhealed gashes around the edges, that continued to throb and bleed, despite the passage of time. Rationally, I knew my lungs must still be intact, yet I gasped for air, and my head spun, like my efforts yielded me nothing. My heart must have been beating, too, but I couldn’t hear the sound of my pulse in my ears; my hands felt blue with cold. I curled inward, hugging my ribs to hold myself together.
It will be as if I never existed.
They were just words, like print on a page. They lacked the perfect clarity of my hallucinations, but the edges of the hole seared, like it I was being dragged across a serrated edge. I gasped, trying to breath without lungs. I wondered silently how long this could last.
I pressed my face against the pillow. What was the point of trying not to think of him? The huge hole was already hurting. . .
Thinking of that, I played the hallucination I had today over and over in my head. The tears streamed relentlessly down my face, as I closed my eyes, and waited for the nightmare to begin."

♥ 6:44 PM

exams are almost over. I fell pretty sure i'm going to do well. For once in my life eh!
anw i dont really give a damn bout anything no more! just do what i want and have A WHALE OF A TIME!
Guess what, this year i have realised to follow my instincts and yea! You see when you never liked this somebody but were forced to make friends with that somebody because that somebody became part of the clique. that doesn't mean you need to make friends with that somebody. Your conscience always knows best you see! Its no point forcing youself to do things that you don't want to do just for the sake of following other ppl. Its just wrong, cos in the end it would turn out like a disaster. eg: If that person doesn't accept you for the way you are and have some problem, they become angry with you. And when that happens you dont really care cos you were forced to make friends with that person, so that person decides that not talking to you is not going to work, they somewhat make friends with you again. The first time you just close an eye and forget about it. After all it would halm the clique. But it hapens a second time. you dont want to be friends anymore but that person somewhat talks to you, you dont want to hurt the clique, you reluctantly talk to that someone again. It happens a third time, the same thing happens but now the clique members "force" you to talk to that pereson again. The forth time it happens you are so going to tell yourself no! i dont care if it harms the clique no more cos that person was never really considered in the clique from my pov.
Conclusion: whoever does't fancy you in the first place dont invest your time bothering to make friends! cfm will regret one! Amen

♥ 11:59 PM

OH MY GOD! SYF DANCE GOLD! ARGH ARGH ARGH! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! CANT BELIEVE IT. guess all the practice was worth it. ARGH HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! I'M SCREAMING LIKE A MAD PIG! FREAK! OH MY GOSH! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! SHITTTTTT!
I'M DAMN HAPPY SO I'M NOT MAD TYPING ALL OF THIS CRAP! SO SHUSH AND DONT LAUGH AT ME!
WEEEEEEEE!

♥ 2:59 AM

OK! so i thought it was time to give a little empathy to my blog and feed it with more info!
Have been waiting ages for him to just send that Hi what are you doing? or I'm bored free to message? but no! At least things are starting to fall into place! except for a dirty little monster whoes name i shall not mention to save her thick skin from more insults.
Anyway, common test is like such a disaster? If i dont pass i dont know how alr! argh! its these things that make my feel like ripping my hair out!
Leah bestie i love you! but i love my felicia more! muahaha! just joking!
A typical day in nats life,
meet weewee at serangoon mrt in the morning
train to school
eat mr bean[yummy]
go assembly
get people asking me why the hell i'm wearing a sweater
go to class...
endure HER for almost the whole day
then end of school
go eat lunch with leah denise felicia ethel vanessa shanna crystal... blah blah
train home
OMG today trained back with felicia ethel and sheri,
sheri started lauging for no particular reason
laugh like boy somemore,
i started laughing
ethel started laughing
felicia looked at us like siao alr,
then laugh so much untill i walk to the other row of seats,
ethel felicia followed leaving sheri all by herself
felicia started taking pics of ethel, damn funny,
laugh laugh laugh,
haha
then got off mrt alr, all of us tap out alr then ethel was like shit i left my wallet in the mrt,
like want to cry alr, then we go talk to the man he say will call us blah.
end of story!
BLOG UPDATED!!!!! WAHOOOOOO

♥ 1:30 AM

OMG. HOLS ARE ALMOST OVER.
Saturday
went far east with leah piere her naval then went watch the city of ember. Ate ben and jerrys while waiting for the movie. yummyyyyyy. after that went looking for present for my grand aunt;D
After that went dinner with with family for her b'day.
Wednesday
went vivo with bestie. was ment to go for chritmas shopping but ended up buying more stuff for myself then for anybody else.finally found my waist belt. ;D
Monday
Went cine with leah denise sheryl akiko and some other few guys. was walking up the escalator and kind of fell. embaressing. pulled leah's slipper down the escalator i n the process. ;D
watched the day the earth stood still. leah was totally grossed out with the stupid alien surgery thingy.
went foodcourt and ate some of sheryls super hot noodles then went plaza sing so my mum could give me a rode home. ;D

♥ 7:51 PM